Feeling nostalgic yet again tonight. It is so easy to get lost in moments during times of change. Change will always come. I guess this night is less of a change and more if a gradual progression. Yep, it's more like the end of a chapter.....One of those chapters you have to go back and reread for fear you may miss or forget something. This is the last night we will hold our one-year-old little girl. Tomorrow, whether we want it or not, is coming, and our baby is turning two.
I don't understand why some people say they don't want their baby to grow up. I am dumbfounded every stinking day at this child. I mean, I know all parents feel this way, but geez, she is so clever, shes an adorable, borderline perfect, tiny human. To miss out on seeing the person she blossoms into would be tragic for me, utterly tragic. And in my 30 years of living, I have discovered that time stops for no one. So, on this special girls birthday, I vow to NOT wish her everlasting infancy, to NOT bawl my eyes out when she blows out her candles and most importantly, I will NOT try everything I can to discover a way to freeze time. No, tomorrow will be here soon and we will create memories, we will enjoy our cute little family and we will not dwell on anything negative.
But tonight, while my sweet almost two year old is sleeping, I will be watching every breath she welcomes. I will be listening to her tiny grunts and moans and committing them to memory. I will, quite honestly, be counting down the last precious moments I have with a one-year-old. AND, I will not hold back tears tonight. Sweet dreams little Aspen. Tomorrow you will be two.
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