making a star

The realization that life is moving with or without me is slightly creeping in on me. Choices are like instant destinations, a road that may not be easily paved; a constant reminder of dreams. Dreams can be forgotten, neglected, or worse, judged.

The things I do, choices I make should come intentionally from my heart and leave no regrets. They should be based on my knowledge of life and love of the world, my understanding. Willingness to give of myself but not all of myself.

If I could make a star and place it in the sky, I would if it meant something of mine would serve a purpose for the world. A light of beauty for all to enjoy. No matter the work, the labor, the eternities of time that would be inevitable, it would all be worth it.

Choices are no more a dream than a single star serves as light. My dreams cannot be forgotten because that means no one would benefit from my place.

the new normal

I just can’t seem to get rid of this dream. I seek for more knowledge because of my insight and love for the human body. I recognize that all is not within my reach and all cannot be fixed nor prevented by just one person. Still, I cannot sit back and give up on learning more, so I aspire just as anyone would do when faced with a fork in the road. I wonder what I will find under this rock.

I would like to say when life gives you lemons…(fill in the blank), but it seems to undermine the past year pilgrimage that I have experienced. If it is meant to be, it will be. To realize I don’t know enough is not merely a feat, as some would say, for me it is a reason to keep going. I can only be responsible for my own choices and my own comprehension of life and so I am and I will. Contrarily, I will not be responsible for outcomes that were not of my own conscious mind. I cannot live in a rotted mind that would take on that obligation.

So, here I am pursuing an otherwise unrealistic goal for a 27 year old….nevertheless, that is me and this is my life. I am setting my sights for fabulous things, for a dream that I have always cherished, for a skill that I have only begun to hone. The only absolute approach to my craving is to become a Doctor of Osteopathy. I will take you with me on this perilous flight of twists and turns, I hope we all come out the other end with a better understanding and a better acceptance of our own personal adventure. Oh how I pray that I my body can handle the route my brain has chosen.

“Some things happen to us from which we never recover and they disrupt the normalcy of our lives. That’s how life is. Human nature has a tendency to try to reconstruct old ways and pick up where we left off. If we are wise, we wont continue to go back to the way things were (we can’t anyway). We must instead forget the old standard and accept a “new normal”. Don Piper/90 minutes in heaven

Ode to Me

Ode to me

Aubrey Bahr

Ode to my Body

It dances

Playfully Healthy

Sleeps

Ode to my Mind

Yearning

Knows gratitude

Remembers

Ode to my Soul

Loves people. Sees

Me

Giving and receiving

Ode to my Spirit

Nature fed

Smells

Of life